I know this is a kind of kooky title for a blog post, but it was appropriate for this past week and I have Warren to thank for it. Things are changing, my perception is shifting and I’m not sure exactly what has transpired but I know that I am shedding emotional skin and emerging as something new. I have become a shape shifter, in the best of ways.
I have been particularly bold this week and that is new and exhilarating. Nothing that most people would write home about, yet big for me and my journey. Maybe it’s just beginner’s luck…what ever the reason I am grateful to have had so many good experiences being present in my own skin this week.
I had dinner with one of my best friends on Thursday and it was exactly what I needed. I hadn’t seen him in a couple of weeks and it was like sinking into a soft pair of pj’s – very comfortable and warm. It is so easy to spend time together. We laugh often and discuss all the insignificant and monumental elements of our lives. It is wonderful. The only drawback of the evening was leaving my leftovers on the table. Mind you, we were laughing hysterically and I was too distracted by our giggles to remember the dinner I had just paid a pretty penny for.
Later, as we walked around a bookstore I asked him for a favor. He is an accomplished artist of many mediums (although he would not admit this to you) and I recently got a sketch kit I wasn’t sure about using. I asked for a tutorial and we sat down for a quick lesson over coffee. He opened up my eyes to the world of proportion in figure drawing. He let me try it out and I sketched out his face. It was fun. I think we’re going to start going to a drawing class together soon.
I’ve decided that sometime, in the next year I would like to volunteer as a figure model for a drawing class. I ask you now to close your mouth and read that sentence again. I know, right? Something is definitely changing around here. I’m a terrified to be naked in front of strangers, but I think that doing something this daring might be exactly what I need. I’m curious to see my shape and form through the eyes of artists and strangers – I wonder what that experience might do to shake up my perception?
After class today I met with my theater troupe for a short acting workshop. We started by getting into our bodies with some stretching and yoga. I was happy to feel my body respond and give into the extension of my limbs. I have been absent in my body for such a long time, I’m enjoying getting to know it again.
I’m looking into next week with a renewed sense of enthusiasm. I’m delighted at the progress I made this week and I don’t want to lose any momentum. I will continue to shift…
I don’t know how this picture ties into all of this – I saw these trees as I was walking to the Light Rail after class and it struck me as beautiful. An abundance of things are striking me as beautiful these days.
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